I swallowed love.....

I swallowed love and almost died.
I swallowed anger until I cried.
I’ve ignored my jealousy,
I’ve crushed my pride
And I’ve come to wonder,
How I’m still alive?

I cloaked insecurities with lies,
And I lied to myself a thousand times.
I’ve pushed my limits.
I’ve tried to fly,
But my feet feel heavier
Every time I try.

At last I ask myself – what for?
To not lose face?
To feel no more?
What’s the point of keeping score?
Emotions break down any door.

There’s a price we pay
For what’s locked inside.
I swallowed love and almost died.
I swallowed anger until I cried.
But these same emotions,
Make me alive