Echo of Silence : Inside me

There are vivid images...
..Sleeping deep inside my soul.
Why are they bleeding in my eyes?
It is like breeding the blind.
Everyone is needing to get high.
Are they greedy...
..For one last ride?
Maybe they are feeding...
..For a life worth of pride.
It is the breathing part...
..That we are born in.
Time is creeping up on us...
..As the war is on the rise.

There are two paths we can go on.
One is a destructive tomb.
The other is a reconstruction room.
Could we forget about the doom?
Many holes still remain in the loom.
The swiss cheese is so much in the bowl.
I just watch as time folds...
..And always have a story that is told.
I know there is a glory inside...
..This tormented soul of mine.
Life is not always a pot of gold.
Is that how the water really flows?
Or is this how the wind always blows?

This is how I bleed deep inside.
I can breath in the cool air.
There is too much greed.
All I want to do is be free.
Is the cup over flowing...
..To become my own creed.
Am I supposed to bleed deep inside?
It is cold on the streets.
The nose is clear to smell...
..All the blood on the bells.
I need a miracle...
..For the life I fell for.
There is a light I can see.
Many bleed...
..But it is inside of me...
..That becomes the free angel.

There is a life that I crave.
Fortunes have lost their fame.
So many souls...
..That freaks have to pray for.
This is not the love...
..That is the key in the door.
Was this supposed to be...
..The dove to sacrafice?
Run child...
..Because the sun will soon rise.
We have wings to fly with.
Just let the bottle spin.
Mmm, Death lost it's grip.

Life is not a myth.
It is the light that shows the grip.
The blood is where our bodies...
..Spill into the rotting coffin.
The black hole always catches a kill.
Why are they destroying...
..All the wind mills we created?
The warrior was never taught...
..A life in what is right and wrong.
So what took so long?
Just one drop of love...
..And we can sing the right song.
Could we burn the rotting logs now?

This is how I bleed deep inside.
I can breath in the cool air.
There is too much greed.
All I want to do is be free.
Is the cup over flowing...
..To become my own creed.
Am I supposed to bleed deep inside?
It is cold on the streets.
The nose is clear to smell...
..All the blood on the bells.
I need a miracle...
..For the life I fell for.
There is a light I can see.
Many bleed...
..But it is inside of me...
..That becomes the free angel.

The mind is not a crystal ball.
Soldiers were not meant to fall.
Could we just stand tall?
The land with the wall...
..Could watch people crawl.
Shooting people was not meant for a law.
Just give me the phone...
..so I can give my angel a call.
Death has a large maw.
The burning barge...
..Is what I saw that night.
The fire was the light.

So many bodies hung on the wires...
..And their lungs suffer.
Ooo, I think I found my lover.
She saved me from this darkness...
..That we both went under for.
I can grow...
..When she holds my heart together.
Mmm, I will peice back together...
..The soul that she felt shatter.
Misery was what made my blood...
..Splatter to the ground.
Her voice is my only sound of life.
What kind of crowd do we live in?

This is how I bleed deep inside.
I can breath in the cool air.
There is too much greed.
All I want to do is be free.
Is the cup over flowing...
..To become my own creed.
Am I supposed to bleed deep inside?
It is cold on the streets.
The nose is clear to smell...
..All the blood on the bells.
I need a miracle...
..For the life I fell for.
There is a light I can see.
Many bleed...
..But it is inside of me...
..That becomes the free angel.

I want a river full of love.
She is the giver of doves.
I have to admit...
..That I am a sinner of polluted lungs.
Why is my body growing thinner?
Are they going to stop...
..Throwing lies in my Angel's face?
Please stop this world of pain.
Greed is killing our flame.
Stop spilling lives.
Mmm, we need a world...
..To start filling souls with love...
..So we can have new places to run to.

This is how we bleed.
Is it enough to stop greed?
Faith is our life for a new creed.
Stop these dreadful nightmares...
..And become brand new dreams.
I am not trying to preach.
I am not trying to grieve.
I am only crying to be free.
My angel and I...
..Are striving to feel a need...
..To bleed deep inside our hearts.

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"Ever have this feeling, while sleeping, that something is staring down at you ? Shadows often move on the walls. Swirl like eyes just creeping on ye every way possible. It's like we are being watched in the darkness and never know what lurks. Yes, I admit, I am scared to fall asleep just from that feeling of bieng alone."
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Echo of Silence : Feel

The smell of your skin still lingers on mine,
The taste of your lips still fresh in my mouth.

Even though you've been absent for hours,
I still see you,
Pacing the crevasses of my heart,
Smiling in my direction, and holding me in your arms.

Your arms wrapped around me,
Promise a fairytale future,
Your whispers in my ear,
They all let me know this dream wont end.

Echo of Silence : Don't

I want to lose (me) in you. You take my breath away when you smile through your tears, and right or wrong, I’m falling in love with you over and over again. I will fall for you any way you need me to even if I break… let me break for you.

If I lose myself in you, the stars will be smiling again, because you are beautiful and you make me beautiful when I stand beside you. I feel you breathing inside my fingertips and it causes love songs in my ribcage and heartbeats in my lungs.

Breaking is nothing new, and I unproudly wear the scars across my back. They turned scarlet with time to match the rivers in my veins. But you are too perfect to shatter, so let me fall for you… I don’t ever want you to cry again.

Echo of Silence : Love Odessy 2

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
and your kind, thoughtful way,
the joy that you bring
to my life every day.
I love you today
as I have from the start,
and I'll love you forever
with all of my heart

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away;
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you,
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your heart,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I will Love You."

Echo of Silence : Enclave

Four ways to go.
Probably even more, if I wanted.
Here, at this crossroads.
Surrounded by non-human things.

The roads themselves are mere tracks.
The stones along them are untouched.
The skies above them clean.
What have we done?

These streams clearly rustling,
These rocks bathing in the sun,
These grasses waving in endless shapes,
These tops around me…

I finally came to understand…
Beauty is misunderstood.

Echo of Silence : Vortex

We had it once,
then we lost it,
all of us,
we lost it somewhere,
between,

our parents,
maybe drunk,
maybe abusive,
maybe neglectful,
or maybe just,
clueless.

school,
the everyday grind,
that was acceptance,
and desire for love.

that boy/girl who never
gave us the time of the fucking day,
much less returned any affection.

teachers,
the droning mantras,
that we didn't care,
that we had no discipline,
that we would never amount,
to anything.

that stunned,
disapproving look,
on peoples' faces,
whenever we told them,
how we REALLY felt.

that worthlessness,
and inadequacy.
whenever we were told,
to try harder.

So we found it again.
we found it somewhere,
somewhere between,
visceral noises from
cheap guitars,
and fuzzy amps.

in every club everywhere,
in rusty warehouses where we gathered.
paint flaking off their sheet metal exterior.

In long, rambling nights of
whatever and ever,
when at least we were free.

small, orange packages of
ZIG-ZAG,
and its' musty green counterpart.

the look in each others' eyes,
anonymous fumblings in the back seats of cars.

small, colored boxes of
cancerous plant bundles,
and that ubiquitous liquid that,
burned soo bad,
just the TASTE,
could make you forget yr troubles.

we found it in worn leather,
with small pyramid studs.
and cheese-cloth patches,
with roofing tar insignias.

in hairspray,
and dyes,
of every ungodly color imaginable.

we found it in small pieces of steel
driven through our flesh
in the sting of razors,
and subdermal deposits of ink that followed.

in small tablets
(also evey ungodly color imaginable)
that cost alot more than money.
in yellow, acrid crystals of certain death.
in broken light bulbs.
torch lighters
foil,
straws and pen shafts

in makeup,
Oh, so much makeup,
that we really wore,
more for ourselves than anyone.

we found it in each other,
and how we met needs,
in how we could be our own saviors.

And we found it,
in the way we awoke each morning,
with no memory of any of this.

Why oh why,
had we become,
nothing,
and everything,
we ever wanted?

and where would we take it from here?
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We were. We are. We will be.
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Echo of Silence : Randomness

What is this feeling?
What words would you give it?

It is strange and new to me,
Yet familiar and comforting.
Like the room in which I was born.
Or a stolen or lost belonging.

It is a feeling that thousands know of,
But very few know.
It needs words that do not exist.
It can only be shown.

It is the smallest gesture,
Yet makes the loudest sound.
It is the slightest touch,
And the deepest wound.

This feeling is beautiful for the ugly one,
And poetry for the dumb.
This feeling is mine, and yours; ours,
A special secret for some.

It is when tears are for joy,
And laughter shall weep.

What is this feeling?
What words would you give it?

Randomness

Never Fade Away

Even though you're here,
I can't help, but, wonder why I fell in love with you.

I literally go by each and every day looking at you,
wondering why you're the reason I'm going so insane.

My feelings, so intense I can't bare a single day without
even glancing at you...talking to you...

Wondering why I can't let you fade away,
even though you're gone.

Echo of Silence : Prodigy

I know this silence – been here before…
I’m walking blinded through your door
This is a sense of things to come
This innocence

Breath in this moment – its come and gone
Further and faster through your soul
Open your eyes, embrace the dawn
Open your mind

Release yourself – it’s a big sky
Reveal yourself, it’s a big sky
We love, we live, we take, we give
Release yourself – it’s a big sky

Echo of Silence : Sleeples

I sleep a lot lately.

No, that’s not exactly true.

Actually, I toss and turn
in my bed like a dog
fretting a blanket,
each moment of stillness
leading to thoughts
that poke me awake
like a hard thumb
to the ribs.

Eventually, my body,
frantic for rest, will
overpower my weary mind
for a few restless hours
until the still dark
morning drags me
out by the hair to
begin it all again.

Echo of Silence : Rain

Being with you,
here in the rain,
our hearts racing,
faces red,
clothing drenched,
smiles on our faces
as we dance together,
droplets falling from the sky
the tears of happiness,
being watched by those up above,
being smiled upon,
we move closer together,
in each others' arms,
a kiss of love,
warm and passionate,
a moment that should last an eternity,
it feels amazing being here in the rain with you,
with the one I love,
the look in your eyes,
the gentle embrace,
it makes my heart race,
it's beating much faster,
you're beautiful,
even as the rain falls upon our faces,
getting in our eyes and clouding our vision,
you're beauty is as clear as day,
we're dancing,
I hear you giggle and I laugh a bit,
wishing that this would never end,
to be here with you forever

Echo of silence : devine cuteness

The girl of the beautiful eyes,

The angelic girl of my dreams,

The girl of my heart,

And girl sweet lips,

When I look into her eyes,

I tenderness, affection and tenderness,

It makes me feel down,

My desires to know,

Of meaning, kiss her,

Power and love, that she could love me too,

Flowers are not compared with its great beauty,

Be prepared to lose my own blood for her,

Losing a part of my body or my will,

If only she could get close to,

And to express my wild excitement,

But my heart would not his presence,

But I get my courage,

In one day, at some point...

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If the person in the picture is reading this .. pls forgive me for the rudeness of using your picture..
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Echo of Silence - Forever yours

All that I am and all that I have

I give to you hand in hand

To love you, cherish you, and forever stand by you

To be your lover, your friend, walk with you til the end

To wake to your kiss, and fall alseep in your arms

Knowing you're all that I'm living for...

For now and for always, from this day forward

With god as my witness

I am forever yours


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She is universal. This started out as something for a specific person, but then I realised everybody has a she. It doesnt matter. If, when you read this, you think of someone, that is your she. If there is someone in this world that you can't forget, someone who you may have loved and lost, never lost, or maybe never even had to lose.

Sometimes there is just one person that you can't help loving. Somebody in your heart who's flaws make them perfect. Somebody you love regardless of what they do to you. Somebody you could never forget.

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Echo of Silence - My own darkness

I stand on the edge of the darkness, a hollow abyss that would echo only my footsteps. The catacombs of my mind. Empty , desolate, a waste land beyond waste lands. Nothing ever grew here. I trace the path within my mind, that which was always destined for me , that which will end my suffering.

I strut into the abyss. although I march to death, I will still march. I never let the fear show, never let anyone know just how I was feeling, why stumble before the finish line. But I cannot take the darkness. It slowly over whelms me, attacks my weakness, my entirety , weak to the end.

I fall to the ground, knowing no one is there to see me lose it. Finally I let it go, release my mind from the prisons of sanity, and just for a second, I forget who I am, and I’m happy.

I step back from the darkness, I run back to my body, to return to the physical world. Return to where I have a little control. But this time the darkness follows me, this time the darkness won’t leave, this time I can’t escape, this time there will be forgetting.

The sky turns to a crimson darkness, and the sun sets for me, one last time. I should return “home” they’ll “miss” me. But I never did do what I should have, ever , why stumble before the finish line.

Snowball effect is a figurative term for a process that starts from an initial state of small significance and builds upon itself, becoming larger, graver, more serious and perhaps potentially dangerous or disastrous - "spiral of decline" - though it might be beneficial instead

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Peace in the sky
kissing long-ago enemies
reuniting with long-lost friends
Rainbow paper dripping art
Candy skin and soft, soft hair.
Running barefoot over water
beauty taking over our minds.
Cigarettes burning holes into the air
burning my face
and finding someone new underneath.
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Morning Gas

Insomnium is supposed to be a word pertaining to dreams, with various interpretations of its meaning. It is unrelated to the sleeping disorder insomnia.




That sound in my ears is the hum of nothing. The high sound and the low sound as well. It is all created by nothing. It is always there, but I am listening to it like a tune now. I can hear the changes in pitch or tone. I think I hear a rhythm. This almost makes me smile because… I know I made it. It is my own heartbeat which kills me slowly by not beating in perfect 4/4 time. How dare my heart not beat like a metronome.

This is the soundtrack, but the visual is even more maddening. The red, laser light glow of numbers projected on the ceiling. Three… four… five…. My eyes shut, but it doesn’t help. The whirring of my brain machinery is menacing to my eyes and plays all the worst movies. The favorite movie in this theater is the one where my life grinds to a halt or derails. All the passengers get off and wander into the endless metaphoric forest only to be crushed to death under the ever opened eye of wakefulness which is me.

I have to get up. I’ve wrapped myself into a cocoon of the softest sheets available on the most comfortable bed anyone has ever slept on. And, though it was all designed to assist with the sacrifice of slumber, none of it helps. In fact, it aggravates me to no end. How can it be this soft? How? I don’t understand how the bed can be so soft and comfortable and warm with cool pillows. How can anyone sleep on perfection like this!? Why can’t I? Christ, I have to get up.
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Standing under the bright florescent light in the kitchen lulls me into the false hope that I am tired. I’ll read. I can’t. I’ll write. I won’t. I’ll walk.

Yes. I’ll walk. Around the living room in a circle or back and forth. Again. Again. Again. I’ll try to lullaby my brain and rock it to sleep with the repetitive motion and laugh to myself about how this isn’t going to work either. Warm milk? Tea? Half a bottle of NyQuil? I will drink them all and laugh, so I don’t drink any of them.

The walking is helping. The glass of water is helping. Lying to myself that everything is fine… is helping. Now is the time to strike; now while I’m thrown about whether or not I’m tired. I return to the ridiculously soft bed and lay down quietly as if not to disturb my sudden urge to sleep. I lay still. I lay perfectly still like a corpse.

Unfortunately, this gives me time to think about myself and I begin to visualize. I am surprised how I see myself tonight. I would think that in the blackness of the night, there in my room, I would see myself as the abyss, but no, I do not. An abyss holds mystery. Anything could be at the bottom of a deep black pit. Something. Something. But, I am not that. I see the hole in my stomach shining light. Light. That is all. I can see everything and there is nothing. Nothing. Nothing.
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Suddenly, I am awake. It is two hours later and I open my eyes. Was I asleep or just in deep thought? I don’t know. I don’t feel like I’ve been asleep. I feel like I was jostled from a thought. I have to get up. Not because I couldn’t just stay right where I am, face up to the evil red numbers, but because they dictate I must be presentable in an hour’s time and walking like a voodoo toy, responding with hollow pleasantries.

Morning Gas

Waking up to "Metal Gods" , it's ecstatic. I mean the way they pick up , it really wakes the dead so by that prodigy its easy for u to get up from bed and do something. .. like this

you say lil wayne- homo!
you say jay z- i say the devil wears prada
you say jonas bros- you a gay kid
you say 50 cent- i say Under Oath
you say soulja boy- i say Lamb Of God
you say snoop dog- i say All That Remains
you say baby bash- i say Avenged Sevenfold
you say Chris Brown-I say Disturbed
You say Jonas Brothers- I say Cradle of Filth
You say Taylor Swift-I say Dimmu Borgir
You say Soulja Fag-I say Evanescence
You say Miley Cyrus-I say Guns and Roses
You say rap-I say rock
You say pop-I say METAL
92% of teens have turned to rap,
if your one the 8% who like to to headbang and disturb the peace. \,,,/.

Echo of silence - Prodigy 1

I'll tell you the truth. It blinded me, it really did.

With its decieving glow that slowly withered away, it had intrigued me when I was alone in the dark.

I'm in that darkness once again, and all I can think is:

Should have packed batteries for the fucking flashlight.

Morning gas

the silence is killing me........

Haven't slept since 14th feb... still trying

Echo of Silence - Please come back

Tears
Pressure building in my chest
I cry
It hurts
You walked away to quick
I want you back
I can't have you though
I lost you
My heart aches
Brain clogged with memories
Pressure inside
Numb
Bloody tears
I cry for you
Shaking back and forth
The pressure builds
It hurts
I can't escape
Aches inside that won't rest
You left me
Come back please

Echo of Silence - When love is lost

Lost in my mind
Lost in my heart
Lost in my thought
Lost in my desire

On my mind all the time
Both in my wake and sleep!
Such an innocent feeling, yet it feels like a crime!
But I have a love for her, a love so deep.

My heart tells me no, but yells at me yes!
Make your mind up, do not torment me!
Whether I stand a chance is anybody's guess,
But if it is no, then just let me be!

The first thing I think about when a wake
The last thing I think about before I sleep
I dream of her and I together, for Pete's sake
Why her, you stupid fool?! Why have a love for her so deep?!

All I want is her to be happy, but that means I must be in eternal pain
Never to be with her, it is like burning in Hell and then going through it all again!

Lost in my mind
Lost in my heart
Lost in my thought
Lost in my desire

Lost..

Echo of Silence : Tears don't fall

No matter how hard I try
I can't hide my Feelings Inside
It Kills Me Everyday
Why Won't These Feelings Go Away?
Friends Aren't Helping Any
I Guess They Never Have
I've Tried To Gain So Many
But Now It's All So Drave
Annoyance Racks Me Everyday
With The Event Of Being Ignored
Again, The Tides Are Turning
Will I Turn Into What I Was Before?
I'm Trying To Avoid It
But It Isn't Helping Any
Does Anything Ever Help?
Crying Isn't Helping
Just Like I Know It Should
Now Everything I'm Doing
It All Just Feels So Fake
And Yet, Through It All
The Tears Don't Fall

Fallen Angel : She's back ...

With each (loud) noise, he looks to the sky,
A hopeful thought and a twinkle in his eye.
When her plan ladns, he'll grow wings and fly,
For his missed darling's plane will (soon) desend from the sky.

Her absence made him feel weak,
Many pictures of her he did seek.
To stare at her beautiful face,
And to this day, he counted down the days.

He missed her more than his hear can tell,
Without her, it's been a living hell.
He would stare at her face, her smile so true,
And whisper to her picture, 'darling, I love you!"

He clutched the roses he held tighter still,
Would he be able to tell her how he feels?
How much he missed her while she was away,
But now that she's back, he'll be okay.

Life without her, he cannot bear-
A life with her he longs to share.
To her, he knows no one can compare,
For her forever he will tend and care.

Fallen Angel : Her smile....

He was left alone, broken hearted
No one to care for
Alone in the darkness
The light shined on him
As he saw a beautiful girls’ smile
His broken heart was mended
He could smile again
The shadows creped into their
Corners as he stared
Into her beautiful smile
Her smile that could shine
Shine brighter than the sun itself
Her smile that could break
A mirror
Because of it’s beauty
Her smile...

Fallen Angel : She is....

Her eyes are bright, burning stars,

Sapphires dancing within them vividly.

Her touch upon my cheek soft, gentle,

My skin tingles under her delicate fingers.

Her lips a bright, pink red,

Soft, inviting, calling me to them with whispers.

Her hair reminds me of silk, red, as a fire blazes.

Her face carved from a beauty,

The likes of which is unseen in history.

Her body, slender, long, perfect in it's own way.


She is the one

The one who makes my heart beat so fast,

I feel I cannot contain it,

The one who makes my blood burn within my veins,

And causes me to heat up.

The one who brings sweet air into my lungs, expelling

The sadness, the hurt, from my body.

The one looking over me in my dreams,

Catching me, should I fall.

She is... my angel.

Fallen Angel : Don't ever leave me

If you died I would drown in a sea of sorrow so deep not even the oceans could touch it
I would hollow myself out so i could fill myself with your memories
I would let the heartache drive me
I would leave notes written only for you
I would carry you with me forever
I could only hope that you could see how much I need you
I would never speak to them again for you
I couldn't ever leave you so don't leave me
please
So don't you ever leave me 'cause I'll never speak again without you
PLEASE! don't leave me...ever

Fallen Angel : Colors of my mind

Ever wondered what’s behind ?
Ever wondered what I see ?
What I think and what I feel?
Come to discover,
What is real.

Wandering through dark forests
Dancing through wonderous places
When you’ll look inside
You’ll come to discover
A million faces.

Cause I got them all
Yellow, green and blue
Even red and pink
Come to discover
Which one is for you.

Happiness, jealousy, sadness
Madness and love
You’ll be amazed by what you’ll find
When you come to discover,
The colours of my mind.

Fallen Angel : Colors of love

Blue mixes with Hazel
Brown swirls with Gold

Cream blends with Ivory
Pink against Soft Pink
Black grazes White
Can't you see?
These are the colors of our love
All the different shades
All the different hues
Our love makes new colors
Colors only we can make
With every kiss
Every touch
Every look
Our hearts create this mixture
These colors of love

Fallen Angel : If love...

If love was a color it would be,
the blue of the sky,
the red of an apple,
the green of the grass,
the yellow of the sun,
the purple of the grapes...

If love was a taste it would be,
the sweet of a chocolate,
the tangyness of a cherry,
the warmth of a real soup,
the sour of a lemon, so sour it hurts, but its wonderful anyway...

If love was a smell it would be,
the warm sweetness of freshly baked bread,
the crisp freshness of newly cut hay,
the tingle of cinnamon on warm apple pie,
the waxy warmth of melting candles,
the sweet smell of life in a baby lamb...

If love was a touch it would be,
the soft of a newborn's skin,
the rough of hard working hands,
the tingling sensation down your spine when your lover's lips brush your cheek,
the gentle tickle of his beard on you'r neck...

If love was a sound it would be,
the soft hum of the meadow's bees in the summer,
the quiet trill in the woods at night,
the whisper of the sand across the desert,
the rhythem of the ocean against the beach...


If you had to explain love to someone,

Fallen Angel : I miss u

I miss you
To my cutipie,

I know your gone for a week
but I just can't stand it when your away
I try harder and harder
to get used to it each day

you've made my life different
in a completely romantic way
and when you leave for a while
it feels like a part of me has gone away

I know your far away from me
and I know I can't get to where you are
but every night of my life
I'll wish for you upon a star

I love you cutipie
and you know I do
and one day, maybe just one day
I'll be right there with you

Fallen Angel : Love Odessy

The only thing I want is to be in love with you
to spend a lifetime just watching your mouth
speaking the words that captivate me

I only want to forget the world
forget everything I've ever known

The only thing I want is to be in love with you
to watch each day pass by like seconds
on a clock that never runs

I want to find myself in you
to become what I have longed for

I only want to feel your touch
the touch of an angel that guides me home when I am lost
and gives me love when I feel that I am hated

You are my guardian angel
You are my angel for life
perfect in every way
don't ever change


I love you...




I will always love you

Fallen Angel : In your eyes

Your eyes are like an ocean,
Upon which I am swept away
But there is no need for a lifeline,
Because I don't want to be saved
Your eyes are deep and perfect,
A beautiful brown cookie
And just like the ocean,
Your eyes hide mysteries too

In your eyes, I see
My future, my destiny
More real than I could have believed
In your eyes, I see
My forever, eternity
And a passion that burns so deep
In your eyes...
I can see your dreams
In your eyes...
I can see me...

Your eyes have entrapped me,
Ever since that first day
And no matter how hard I resisted,
I just couldn't get away
Your eyes have hidden depths to them,
That at first I did not perceive
For me there's no escaping,
I fall into them so willingly!

In your eyes, I see
My future, my destiny
More real than I could have believed
In your eyes, I see
My forever, eternity
And a passion that burns so deep
In your eyes...
I can see your dreams
In your eyes...
I can see me...

I am lost...in your eyes
Staring into them,
I completely lose track of time
Looking into your eyes, I'm free
You see me for who I am...
And for who I can be!

In your eyes, I see
My future, my destiny
More real than I could have believed
In your eyes, I see
My forever, eternity
And a passion that burns so deep
In your eyes...
I can see your dreams
In your eyes...
I can see me..

Fallen angel : Breath

To hear that voice,
the whisper penetrating
the veil of silence
that has long escaped
my ears.

Your lips forming
those soft vowels,
those hard consonants,
unable to be heard,
only seen.

I long to hear
those sweet words
dancing around
like sugar plum fairies
on Christmas eve.

I long to feel
them tip toe
through the absolute darkness
of my mind
at night on those old creaky wood floors.

How I wonder
how it sounds
and why it is gone,
oh how I want
to hear its tune.

That voice you have hidden,
will soon be heard,
by the slightest chance
it might be heard through one little whisper,
one little tune, one little melody,
that will open the cacophony that is life.

Maybe sometime soon…

Fallen Angel : Intermomentus

I love you.
That is my truth.
Do I understand it? No!
I don't even know if I could live up to it.
I love you.
You will ask: How much?
Is it really necessary to tell
you?
Suddenly, you've become everything.
My serenity,
my
true love.
You'll then ask:
What is "true?"
That's fine, I'll tell you
"true"
is to feel you,
that I take you inside me
that I lose you and I don't have you,
it's to feel that I forget you and I cry and sigh
it's to know that you are not mine,
and to know you never will be.
It's to miss you and go crazy without seeing you,
without speaking to you,
It's talking to myself, alone, about you...

I love you.
What else could I tell you?
I love you, I want you, I need you.
And to finish, you can ask (once again):
How much?
But that, you will never know.

Fallen Angel : Love

Love is you.
Love is me.
Love is something you can't see.
Love is nice.
Love is sweet.
Love will sweep you off your feet.
Love is soft.
Love is best.
You can feel love in your chest.
Love is great.
Love is kind.
Love is always on my mind.
Love is special.
Love you cherish.
My love for you will never parish.

Fallen Angel : Silence of Love

We first meet and words over flowed
Every day we talked, our conversations never slowed
Twelve hours a day or even more
We were up at dawn talking till darkness fell once more
Stories of the past and things that just happen
From our life books are chapters keep cracking
From one page to the next we would fill each other in
Till we came to the present and the stories would lessen
Are talks got shorter as time went on.
Now it’s how was you’re today?
Is every thing ok?
But I understood!
We can’t talk forever
We now know each other from cover to cover
We sit in silence but the love is there
Just because we don’t talk all the time doesn’t mean we don’t care
We just understand one another and talk when need be
Some times we talk casually
But we have an understanding that will always be
True love is there and now I see.

Fallen Angel : Black Rose

Red roses are so cliché—and a yellow rose did not say enough
A white rose speaks of purity—perhaps I should have reached for the blue
Though mysterious, that colored rose just did not seem to suit you.
I could have reached for the pink, but I held back
Though your presense gives me happiness—the pink just seemed to lack.
I needed something more—something that spoke of us
That said “forever is our friendship” and you’re the one I’ll forever trust.
And that is when it dawned on me—the colored rose I’ll give
The color of all eternity. The one that forever lives.
You might think this is crazy—like logic never once touched my mind
Perhaps you’re right, but this is the only way to state our friendship is eternal
And that even in the darkest light—you’ll always shine.
So I present to you a black rose—yes, go ahead and gasp in fright
But let me explain this to you and perhaps you’ll see my logic may be right.
A black rose is symbolized as death—thanks to Hollywood these days
But isn’t death the only thing that is eternal? Forever you live in memories
And this is my way of saying—that even in the after life
You’ll always be a best friend to me.
Nothing in life nor in death could ever change that.

Fallen Angel : Moments

you are worth the sum of two moons and
three-hundred and ninety-seven crystalline stars.
you outshine everything

you are beautiful, like a fallen paper angel, with
tattered wings and a shipwreck smile, and
your halo is woven from strands of golden
and smiles
and love.

you are damaged, maybe, but through your cracks
and bruises shines a glow that's worth the hurt, seeping through
your fractures like the ocher-eyed sun,
the silver-threaded rain,
the sunset-spattered sky.

you speak of translucent dreams and strawberry skies
and black-and-blue fingertips pressed to forlorn skin.
to you, i can say 'i'll be there you', and i'll always mean it.

Fallen angel : Prologue

The sun is dawning
and the world is still spinning;

I am in motion,
but I am statue-still.

My heart is forever beating,
lungs forever breathing,

and I am eternally grateful.
For what?

I'm not sure,
but I know it's there.

And, if for nothing else,
I am thankful for the sun, the moon, and the stars,

and how they reflect off my memories of you-
how they shine for you-

even if you're not here.

The breeze is blowing
and the birds are still singing;

I am silent,
and I am loud.

I am forever living,
forever dying,

forever in motion,
forever for you;

forever, even if you're not here.

Silence of Mandar : As I fall

Dreams repeat themselves
intertwining with reality
leaving me with too much noise
too many thoughts
distorting whats fake and what's real

but sometimes even in noise
if you listen carefully
there is silence

Happiness is usually temporary
but can last forever
if I keep fighting for it
A never ending battle
to keep the demons out

They will keep coming
while I keep dancing on the edge
pushing them down with silent songs
and dreams of the future

All that will remain is silence
honoring the struggle it took
to get this far, to stay this way
to never change for anyone but yourself
to only do what feels right

You will know you are there
when the voices stop
and you can only hear yourself,
the wind blowing through your hair
singing a song of realisation
and acceptance